brain dump

i just got back from seeing jonathan kozol speak at mount holyoke. a well delivered talk, very inspiring in a lot of ways. he comes across as a really humble person who has thought about and practiced/experienced the education system in the U.S. i find these things really hurt my head...i get so overwhelmed, angry and then discouraged by the enourmous task of "fixing" education, really "fixing" the institution. but its an institution, i think more and more that institutions are evil, they are at their very core faulty, because they are run by us, becuase they embody priveldge, power, and money. can the change that needs to happen happen with out another civil rights movement? another revolution? an all out war, violent social upheaval?...but i hate war. destruction, violence, hate, only lead to more violence, hate and destruction. the solution doesn't seem to ly there...at least not in practice. subtle acts of thought subversion are one thing...being radical in how i live, in how i interact with people...but not a radical nature of the kind that probably comes to mind. arg, i can't get this out properly. i'm extremely frustrated. i feel peace in the path i have found in that it is the Path. but am i condemned to live and work within this place...living with in the system. maybe this is all a realization that these are the burdons we carry, chipping away at massive social problems, interacting with the masses one person at a time, helping people to think differently, to have equal access....man i can't even begin to comprehend the implications of our current 'digital divide'. there is a whole other side of segragration becuase of technology.

i caught adam's dnb show on WMUA on the way home, actually i'm streaming it now too. wicked good stuff. contempletive beats. music is soo good for thinking. thanks Adam.